so i quit drinking pop about...three months ago... wow, that can't be right. anyway, a while ago. so, my new goal is to drink only water. and i'm trying to drink the whole 'eight 8oz glasses a day,' thing. it's harder than it sounds. or maybe it just is for me. but by the end of the day i am loathing that glass of water. anyway, today is the first day i've been able to finish all of it...i'm pretty impressed with myself actually.

my next goal...running. this is pretty funny to me cause right off the bat i know it's not going to go well. i HATE running. i don't see a point, it's not enjoyable to me. i think i would find it difficult to find enjoyment while running from large animals that threatened my very life. however, i'm trying to make big changes in my lifestyle and i hate to think that running will become part of my life. it's frightening. but, i also refuse to spend money for a gym membership...i just can't do it so we'll see how the running thing happens...i'll be starting that in the next couple weeks. i'm on another plan right now. (i give you permission to continue laughing through the next paragraph.)

i've realized recently how important encouragement is. i guess i've always kind of known but just recently the point was just driven home for me. that may sound really dumb. over the past few days/couple weeks i've run some random ideas past some friends its amazing to me how much my enthusiasm is effected by their reaction. i'm not a fan of all this. it bothers me. it makes me want to encourage my friends more. but with one friend reacting tellling me that it's a bad idea or implying that i wouldn't succeed, instantly my enthusiasm is gone and i can't help but think is it my idea that's just so out of this world, or is it my friend who doesn't see me past where i am right now? i'm trying to figure that out now. we'll see. until then, just think, "you can do it!" and you can.

okay, i'm so tired that it hurts to keep my eyes open and it hurts to think. i need some sleep.

k